

Because whinging is like alcohol. It feels good for you but other people have to suffer your insanity.
Anyway. Iapos;m super super tired. Because I slept at 2.30 yesterday morning, for really no good reason. Okay, I was Skyping with a friend from England....but seriously. I should have prioritized. So I slept for about an hour at the nurseapos;s office and now she says I canapos;t go to volleyball practice. I donapos;t wanna go but I have a game tomorrow, and that is shit. And plus I have to have to go to MUN beforehand because I wrote the fucking resolution and fuck that shit. Ahem. Yes. I am a dignified being.
Right now, I have 0 direction in life. Seriously. I just do homework because itapos;s assigned, not for any other purpose than not getting in trouble. Because I canapos;t even figure out what I want to do with what Iapos;m learning, you know? It used to be set for me that I really wanted to do medicine, but now...not so sure. Itapos;s a lot of work, and if Iapos;m shying away from it just because of that, I obviously am not cut out for it. And to a certain degree, Iapos;m not -- I suck at math, haha.
And then thereapos;s journalism. Which is awesome but difficult to really excel at, and I think that bringing the truth to the people is such an important task that I donapos;t know if I could really live up to it.
And then, thereapos;s politics. Many people have told me that I should do politics, because Iapos;m pretty passionate about it, but thatapos;s what Iapos;m afraid of. That Iapos;m going to have to give up my values because of the way the American governmental system is cut out. Lobbies, and extreme left and right polarization, etc. Personally, I donapos;t understand why bipartisan action is so lauded. Thatapos;s a huge part of politics -- negotiating with your enemies.
And then, thereapos;s teaching. Again, I think itapos;s a huge responsibility and I really donapos;t want to fuck it up. Iapos;d either be a biology or history teacher, because those are two subjects Iapos;m pretty good at and theyapos;re more interesting than English.
And then thereapos;s acting. But I donapos;t know how in hell Iapos;d ever make it.
And then thereapos;s writing. But go see the thing about acting.
And THEN (last one, I pwomise) thereapos;s political...satire. People have told me oh, youapos;re so funny. Or like. Whatever. I really do like making people laugh (I am quite the attention whore), but to make it into a profession is to admit that you think youapos;re funny, and really putting yourself out there to be...fodder. While Iapos;m not primarily afraid of what other people say, I donapos;t think Iapos;m really good enough, consistently funny enough to spearhead the politicians. I mean, sure, Iapos;m pissed off about it. But does it really, like...? I donapos;t know.
So yes. I am a confuzzled little child with Indecision problems. Iapos;m flip-flopping, but I canapos;t flip-flop much longer. Ze cooooold and bitter vinterrr is caaaaamingg, and fleeeep-flops arrr forrr warmmmm pleeeeeesessss.
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